Alone and Seeking Defeat

If I could dominate the world with a knife in my hand - then I am definitely not human. But the fact is that I am human, which is a shame. When I was a beggar, I was extremely happy. However, the time of happiness was always short-lived, just like my equally short life as a beggar. Many times I had to forget to take a bath because I couldn't bear to kill the lice that were just born on me. In a sense, they were all my children. Conception: