If possible, we should never say breakup;
If possible, I would like to live and die with you;
If possible, I hope to be with you for the rest of my life;
I don't want to make you sad if I can;
If possible, I really don't want to leave you.
But there are no ifs in my life, my age is not negotiable, and my disease is impossible. I really don't want to leave you, I really don't want to make you sad. All I can do for you now is to find happiness for you again and wait for you to say goodbye!