Xu Zixin and Ye Mufeng, Ye Mufeng and Xu Zixin. Xu Zixin said, have you heard of the legend about hyacinth? I always thought I was Hyacinthus. I have always been secretly in love with Apollo, the sun god, and like the warmth that the sun brings me. But why wasn't I the one who died? If you ask me why I don't want to die? Yes, death is just a kind of relief. Love and pain have disappeared. My love has disappeared, and the memory of him loving me has also disappeared. This is nothing.