As you can see, this story does not follow the plot.
Xia Shou hopes that there is someone in this world who can love him, accompany him through life, and then follow the trajectory of life to the end together. It's obvious that Lin Gong is the person who loves Xia Shou, but this life is too unreliable and completely different from what Xia Shou thinks.
This is simply not the life he wants.