I always remember someone telling me that if you can't wait until the right time and meet the right person, don't just find someone to get married and have children for the rest of your life, and don't be pretentious and think that you will only be alone forever. Believe that the person with whom you hold hands really exists, but there is a layer of white paper between you, so you can't perceive each other for the time being.
The first time I repeated this to An Yan, he asked me if he believed it after hearing it. I raised my chin and looked at him with disdain. Didn't you see that I was accelerating to finish the long damn white paper that was in the way? An Yan smiled good-naturedly and said nothing.
The second time An Yan repeated these words to me, he asked Xiaohan if you still remember these words. He said that I thought the blank slate between us should have ended long ago, so we can always be together. I looked at An Yan's dark and bright eyes, and suddenly I felt that it was worth betraying the world for the guy in front of me who had been with me for so many years.