She originally married him with the thought that she had no control over her fate, but found that she had the most beautiful relationship. Maybe there were impurities in this relationship, but she slowly fell into love with that man and was unswervingly committed to it.
Maybe that man was ruthless, but he was really kind to her. What those men owed her could not be repaid at the time, and they were constantly looking for ways to give it to her. And the man's kindness to her was rewarded, and she depended on him life and death.
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