If you don't have the power, then go and grab it.
If others want to kill you, kill those people first.
In those years that I went through, going around and around, I finally realized that what I thought was pure ignorance in those years was just a joke.
To make a long story short, this is how a simple girl who first entered Soul Society was forced by the author to embark on the road of BT through various messy plots, and she has never been able to look back.