A girl who has just entered the Chinese Department of a university is confused and has illusions. Her heart is full of contradictions instead of the liberation after restraint that college students should have. The growing sense of guilt has kept my heart from calming down, and my laziness has kept me from dedicating myself to reading. My love for words has exceeded my family's imagination. I know that the possibility of my success is very small, but I hope to record the footprints I left behind, so that I can feel less lonely and forget about the passers-by in life.