In junior high school, I lived like this for three years in the name of an "honor student," so it was expected that I would be ranked second in the city and go to the best school in the city. I had always had a vague understanding of things like fate - but those were all in the past. It was only a few years later when I slowly thought about it alone that I realized that maybe this might be fate, in other words, destiny, disaster. It was only at the beginning that I understood the bitter consequences.