She is a commercial illustrator who doesn't care much about anything except drawing, and her life is confused and rough. He has a mysterious profession and travels around like an idle player. Unfortunately, he suffers from a family hereditary disease, but he has a special liking for colors. Shen Yimo's original life was like a pool of clear water, slow and quiet but also unremarkable. If it hadn't been for the unexpected death of her twin sister Shen Yixuan, her life might have continued without any suspense. It seems that the age of 25 is destined to become a profound and painful turning point in her life. The story has unexpected developments since meeting Qiao Chengyi in Ukraine. She never thought that she could love someone without hesitation, lose herself, and be unreasonable. If their love can go as expected and go smoothly, maybe they will be like ordinary lovers, with their passion fading away day after day and year after year, and drifting apart amid trivial matters. "Thinking that I can't have him, I want him even more. I can't give up." It is the cruel impossibility of reality that makes my heart clearer about who is indispensable to whom. "Thinking that I can't have him, I want him even more." This is a love that is warm and cruel at the same time, self-harm and mutual abuse. She is lonely and brave in love, but she is happy with it. "As long as I think about him, even if it hurts, I still feel that I exist."