I wrote this book at the age of fifteen and completed it at the age of seventeen. In the past two years, both the book and my life have been tempered. The book was written in three drafts, copied to the fourth draft online, and revised seven times. People, after dropping out of school, running away from home, returning home to write books, taking books away from home, learning skills to manage life, become frustrated and escape. The book has 400,000 words and 44 chapters.
Documentary literature describes the trauma of an ordinary rural family within six months; the blind well of society; the growth of children; the unfair life path; beautiful love; difficult reality; resistance and reflection on education; the roar of struggle...
After writing this book, I myself fell into great confusion and could not find out the cause and effect. I dropped out of school because I hated the education system and wanted to live my own life and live for myself. The discussion of education and the pursuit of human freedom account for a large part of the book, but now many of my thoughts have disappeared and I understand the sense of proportion. But I think about my classmates, I think they can at least control their own brains. After reading this book, you may have the same confusion, maybe you can change your attitude towards life, maybe you can try to change, maybe you can learn to be alone.
There is also this big society, ideals and reality, adults and children, loyalty and deception in love. My heart is very dark. I often cannot find light in my life and feel that my life is over. This book is equally hopeless and dark.
Now, my mind is very simple. I can no longer tell stories. My brain has been drained. I can only read out the story I thought of before.