The face on the paper is so vivid, so quiet, so quiet that it doesn't look like him, but the lonely and indifferent smile between the eyebrows and eyes is all in her depiction. Only then did she realize that he had succeeded, and that his success had left a faint but indelible mark on her heart, enough to make her think of all the good things about him in an instant, and she resented that she had failed him after all, a person who was willing to give her everything.
The subsequent reunion was no longer something they could control whether they would drift apart or get closer, but she still wanted to believe that he would always be there for her, holding the light for her in the darkness.