When I opened the window, the cold wind rushed in, ruffling my hair and disturbing my mood. Unconsciously looking out the window, the withered yellow leaves fell from the branches one by one, and were blown up by the wind, flying wildly in the air, as if they were unwilling to end like this and were making a final struggle. Close the window and ignore it. Sitting on the ground with bare feet, his back against the wall, his head on his knees, curled up into a ball. This is my accustomed posture. It's strange. The room is very hot. Why do I feel cold? It seems that being in a ball like this can make them warmer.
Damn, I'm thinking of him again. It must be retribution. I bullied you, and you retaliate against me all the time. Hehe. . . How fair. No matter how tightly I hold myself, nothing is as warm as your embrace. Less than a year after we met, you have crawled into every corner of my life, gnawing away at what little is left. My heart has been hollowed out. Aren't you satisfied? Too greedy. Please, leave my life, don't make me hurt anymore.
No matter how hard you struggle, you cannot defeat fate. Just like fallen leaves, they will eventually fall and decay. A line of tears overflowed from his eyes, slid down his cheeks and fell silently to the ground. I cried again, why can't I change it? Forget it, I'll just let it go, but this is the last time. Countless times, I said this to myself. But I know that these tears will never run out, never. . .
Crying and losing focus at the same time is probably something only I can do. I wonder if this is considered a specialty? Suddenly I remembered an old song. I couldn't remember the name. I only remembered the line "You must be happier than me." Lei Lei must be happier than me, no! I am not considered happy, I should definitely be the happiest!