He thought he would be happy, he thought he would laugh out loud when his goal was achieved. However, when he saw her tears falling because of his "betrayal", his heart seemed to be twisting. He knew he was wrong. But he doesn't regret it, maybe it's just as well, because their road has no end. If he keeps going like this, he may hurt her even more in the end. Maybe it is the best comfort for him that she hates him all her life! Because he can be less concerned and fettered by his soul.
But he still wanted to thank her, thank her for giving him love on the edge of life. If there really is an afterlife, he will still not regret his choice. Don't say this is too vulgar. He used to think so too. But when she met her one day, she realized that people were not talking about it because it was vulgar, but because it was indeed the most appropriate sentence. It only became vulgar after being mentioned by too many people. He thought she would understand what he meant.
He didn't ask her for anything, but at that time he asked her to promise him that if she saw her again in the next life, remember not to say that she loved him?