This article is about youth and remembering youth. It describes a heroine's confusion and depression in adolescence. The process of getting lost step by step and falling step by step. Using growth as a thread, she unfolds her experience of complex emotional entanglements, betrayal, teasing, third parties, deception, and lies, which brought her step by step to the edge of collapse. And the love-hate intertwining of family, love, and friendship made her realize everything.