I have changed. Jingniu said that I don't like to laugh. I spent more time in silence. I looked at her and pointed at the position of her heart and said that it is empty, it hurts, and it is so cold. I once took you to visit my high school alma mater. We walked through every part of the school together. You said the ivy in the Moral Education Building was so lush and spooky that it could be used for filming ghost movies at night. I even proudly told you that I was once a good student in the experimental class. At that time, I had you holding my hand, and I kept chattering away, while you looked at me with a smile, your eyes full of love. It's still the same road now, but I'm walking alone. No one will worry about whether I will sprain my feet if I'm careless, and no one will say to me, stupid, I love you. I have never seen that bush of ivy again.