He thought he might be thinking about that impossible person and be alone for the rest of his life. He thought that the trajectory of his life was already predetermined, until he met him...
He longs for love, but is afraid of love and doubts love because of the hurt he has suffered...
They were close to each other and repelled each other. Fortunately, he didn't leave when he left, and he was still there when he looked back.
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