I have always been proud and never believed that I would be bound by emotions.
However, God's will plays a trick on people. Why can't I forget about him when I met him when I was young? I can't help feeling happy, angry, sad, and happy. Once I taste this feeling once, I don't want to taste it a second time. It's like a drug addiction, you cry and feel happy at the same time, but you just can't let go.
However, how can I allow myself to be controlled by others?