As someone who has already entered the fifth grade, this is my first time in Beijing to receive an award. I really don't know whether to laugh or cry. And he received the award from the second PEN Club of "Selected Novels". "Selected Novels" holds a pen meeting, which is said to encourage creation, expand influence and discover talents. It is a kind of annual literary meeting. So, some say yes, some say no. I say yes because it is organized by "Selected Novels" and plays a very important role. It's hard to say, because I have to pay for the meeting myself, and the award I receive is only an honor, and it is whether I can qualify to participate in this PEN meeting. But this time, no matter good or bad, I will go. Not to mention that Mr. Du Weidong, the editor-in-chief of "Selected Novels", valued me, a rural writer, because of the first PEN Conference. It is also a reason why I have never been to Beijing as an adult.