My feeling for Xie Jianuo is love. He is the first boy who can make me feel my heart and soul. It is my true first love and my first lover. I gave him my purest feelings, and his name was written all over my youth. He said to me, Jing Yan, I really liked you at the beginning, but I was not satisfied, so you lost your most beautiful youth.
Lu Liunian, you have to know that I also loved you. It's just that I knew you wouldn't stay with me till the end of my life, so I didn't go to the end with you. I have forgiven you, but how can you come back? What can I say so that you can hear me? I miss you, do you feel it?
Dear Zhou Chumo, I don't know if I will become depressed without you, and if your usual calmness will become vulnerable. I always remember what you said, "Jing Yan, when you decide to let go of everything, I will give you happiness and I will wait for you forever until you let go first."
Give me time, maybe I will find a new me, maybe I will decide to be with you and grow old together. When the family was full of descendants, I suddenly looked back and realized how many years I and I had gone.