Then I got old.
It is no longer realistic to fall in love at that age. I once had a fantasy, but it was shattered by the wedding ring on someone else's ring finger. I have always regarded my faith as love, and gave my love to that person to trample on. If I had only repaid what I owed him originally, I would have settled it long ago.
To this day, I can stand in front of him without fear and tell him, let's go.