"Adalheidis, you will never know what happiness is, and you don't deserve it."
Yes, I'm not worthy, I'm dirty.
"Adalheidis, your name means noble, typical, role model, but you are humble."
Yes, I am lowly, just like my parents gave birth to me but were abandoned
"Adalheidis, join us, we are all forsaken by God"
Yes, we are all abandoned by God.
"Adalheidis, you are not Alice Hamilton. We don't need to have disgusting innocence and cuteness. Those feelings only exist for children who are well protected by their parents."
Yes, how could I have that kind of feeling?
"Adalheidis, we all in the world cannot believe that we alone are licking the bloody wounds in our hearts without adding salt to them."
Yes, the only one the whole world can believe in is yourself.
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(PS: The writing is very bad, so be careful. The update time is uncertain, but I won't give up. This article is a bit ambiguous, either NP or no CP. I'm not very good at writing about emotions. If you don't like it, just click X.)