You can't go anywhere. The meaning of life is just nonsense. The memory of the past has disappeared and cannot stay in front of me. The only thing you can do is to change yourself and adapt to this city as quickly as possible. Therefore, you must work hard every day and never slack off. You have to know that there is no way back, and your unswerving strides forward will be as endless as breathing. "
24 Years old. Graduation from college is about to begin. I chose to stay in this city for now. I have no attachment to this city. I can't say I like it or dislike it. It's just because I don't know where to go. Even if I arrive in a new environment, I feel like I won't change much. During more than a month of internship, I fell in love. For a long time, I didn't want to admit it. When the good expectations that had been accumulated for a long time suddenly turned into fine needles and penetrated into the bottom of my skin, all the negative emotions overwhelmed me and swept me into the center of the storm. A huge greedy leech clung to my back, sucking the few remaining fantasies I had. There seemed to be no end to everything and I could only endure it in silence.