The heroine is 31 years old,
She is good at using fantasy to escape from real life,
She has been obsessed with online novels since she was 16 years old, and it has been 15 years.
When she was 16 years old, she was under pressure alone in the cramming education of a key high school. How should she deal with this pressure? She doesn't understand.
She grew up in a taciturn native family, and she spoke no more than ten sentences to her parents every day. She had never experienced the emotion of being well accepted. When she was sad, she would just close the door and hug the quilt and cry silently. One day, she was humming happily for some unknown reason, but her mother asked strangely, "What do you have to be happy about?"
What should we do if we are under tremendous pressure? She doesn't know how to identify her own feelings, and she doesn't know how to communicate her feelings and problems by raising her dilemma to others, because she doesn't know who to talk to, and who will be willing to listen? Who will care about her? Who will give her the correct answer? She became a withdrawn character, lonely and depressed.
She hated the words and ideas of her poor parents, and did not have pocket money to read published books. She owned a mobile phone and discovered online novels. She felt happy in the world of novels. She thought it would be a better world of ideas. She thought: at least it would be better than what her mother said, "You will get married and have children when you grow up, and a monthly salary of three thousand is enough." It was also better than the funny speech of her father, "It is better to leave society early and become a big boss in the future than to study."
She fell in love with the novel and fell into a dream.
At the age of 17, "Rebirth" aroused her desire after she dropped out of school due to severe depression. She fantasized that going back in time really existed, and she could go back to the past to make up for her mistakes. She read the "Rebirth" subconsciously, but she didn't understand why this subject matter was so attractive to her. She didn't think about it anymore, and her attention was diverted by [Love], because "Rebirth" is all about redeeming love.
[Love] Is it really that good? Will it make her who feels lonely and has no one to communicate with feel companionship, support and love? She was planted with desire, and with love, life would be better.
At the age of 18, she felt scared and confused when seeing pornographic films. She did not want to be a submissive and be humiliated.
"Main Attack Articles" and "Four Love Articles" opened up a new perspective for her, and she began to imagine that she was a male or a female attacker.
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This is the life of 31-year-old Li Jingyue.
Intention: Planting illusory causes and producing hopeless results