The time in the past was always so painful, and hellish pain came again and again. I have been tempered to an unimaginable strength.
Going back to the past, maybe it's God's mercy on me. He doesn't want me to be alone forever and doesn't want me to continue to grieve. Since the irreversible fact is here, the only option is to forget about it and start over.
Going back to the past, I hope to live a happy life and put an end to all the troubles in the world. I don't know if God can fulfill my wishes.
Since God's arrangement will have its own ideas, what I want is a happy life.