There is such a group of people for whom dawn is dusk.
Tell stories from a long time ago in the memories, and then tell the memories in the present. The life and stories of the past are constantly recalled in the memories. After awakening, you can't tell the truth from the false. Maybe the time when you were constantly running away caused guilt and a sense of meaninglessness in life because of recalling the past. You went to save others but others did not need to be saved by yourself. Maybe it was just an excuse that you imagined to get rid of the current difficult life.
It is a stream of consciousness work with extremely complicated chronological order. If you have low IQ and like to read YY articles, please avoid it!