I've Let You Down Again, but This Time, I Don't Want to Say "I'm Sorry" Anymore

I am very bad at writing prose, especially if it involves myself, for fear of being spied on and exposed by others. So I would rather write book reviews and film reviews to judge other people's lives and imaginations in a serious way, or create a new world where the characters kill each other and die. I shed tears several times while writing this article, but I won't do it again. Conception: