There will always be a bastard like that in everyone's life. He leans on the soft couch and watches you crying and laughing for him.
What is there to be sad about? What Shi Yeguang wants is for you to see him as your lover and for him to see you as passers-by.
See you crying for him, laughing for him, feeling so sad for him, and beyond redemption for him.
That's... It couldn't be better.
Conception: