I remember when I was in primary school, when other children were so naive and shouted: "I want to go abroad! I want to eat KFC every day! I want to go to an amusement park! I want 1 million!", I was already carefully calculating the travel expenses and food expenses. My parents thought I was weird for a while, because whenever they asked me "Do I want it?", I always looked indifferent, as if I wasn't interested in anything. In fact, I just understood some truths earlier. In the following story, I will not popularize it just to please you. What you see is not a grassroots person who worked hard from the bottom, nor is it an aristocrat who is at home in the upper echelons of society. In other words, this story is not suitable for officialdom, nor can it be said to inspire your will. The me in the story has such a strange identity, strange way of thinking, and strange relationship history.