Under normal circumstances without corpse transformation, I live in the future.
I discovered that I actually don't have many opportunities to live in the present. I haven't even thought about what is the present, what is the past, and what is the future without them.
But at this moment, corpse transformation does not allow me to escape from the present.
And the fact is that I will most likely never belong to the ordinary world again and will never be able to participate in it again.