For you, I tried hard to change myself and move in the direction you wanted, but in the end I lost my soul; for you, I actively faced reality and seriously gave you the life you wanted, but my running footsteps couldn't keep up with the rhythm of your imagination; for you, I hurt myself thousands of times, and countless utter despair turned you into an inertial pain in my heart...
I don't want to struggle anymore, I seem to have stopped...
Billus, I want to give up, I... Have to give up...
Finally, I would like to say that this article is useless, please read with caution...