I hated you, but I also loved you, and now I am free.
If there is an afterlife, I will definitely not be as cowardly and affectionate as her and hurt myself throughout my life.
If there is an afterlife, I will definitely not be as selfish and ruthless as you, ruining your family for the rest of your life.
If there is an afterlife... If there is an afterlife... I will definitely live as happily as I want, and find a place for myself and my family to survive.