Whenever I think about that past event, I always feel the deep sense of helplessness of missing it.
This mist is about to be broken, just like the nothingness of my beautiful fantasy.
But if I could go back in time, I would still not change my choice. I know clearly that this is the path I should take.
Therefore, I can't say that I have a clear conscience that I don't care about the passing away. All I can say is that I feel guilty but have no regrets.