Those years are times that none of us can get back. You are the one I can never wait for.
I like to stand by the floor-to-ceiling windows at home and look out at midnight, with a mouthful of Bordeaux in my mouth, wondering where you could be.
Maybe you are hiding in the gust of wind that caresses my ears in the morning; or maybe you are hiding in the afternoon sun that always warms me and looking at me;
More likely, you are in the darkness across the river.
Many people know that I love you deeply, but they don't know that I have never guessed through you, just like the infinite darkness that I can never see through. So I don't even know where you are today.
But what does that matter? There is one place you can never escape, and that is my heart.
Even if one day I leave this world and 22 grams of soul leaves my broken body, I will use my last breath of spiritual energy to rub you into my soul.
You said that was not love, but my regret for the past.
Yes, what we can't let go of are those fragments about us.