I fell in love with a boy during my best high school years. He is not handsome, but he has always been very nice to me. He doesn't love me, he said let's be friends. I would call him when I was sad, and even if it was inconvenient, he would listen to what I had to say. He won't comfort me, he will only take away my sadness in a way of speaking that is better at writing. His singing voice is no less than Xiao Jingteng and Lin Youjia. He stole my heart with your eyes and his new love. He always speaks in a nonchalant manner, but I know that's not his nature. He is actually very lonely. Even if he has a girlfriend, he is still lonely. No matter how many gay friends he has in school, he is still lonely no matter how popular he is. This book is about some of my spiritual journey when I had a crush on him. He didn't know that I wrote it. Because I am still a student, I try to update it once a week. I will update it until one day I have enough courage to tell him that I love him or that we are together...