When typing this topic, I have been hesitating whether to add the word "I" before "ex-boyfriend" to define the affiliation of this sad title.
The word love is so beautiful that it makes people feel distressed. After Huahua and I broke up, I have always been afraid of and longed for this word. I kept thinking about everything between us, and then one day I suddenly discovered that my ex-boyfriend Huahua, although he had many girlfriends, could not fall in love. So, during this period of being alone, I prepared to write such a tutorial to teach him how to fall in love, and then, after me, love well... Other girls.
As I was writing down the words line by line, all the past events and fragments of images flashed by one by one, making me smile or shed tears as I kept recalling them. In the days after the breakup, I thought of his good and bad, his cuteness and his rogueness, but no matter what he was, he was so lovable and dependable. I miss him, I miss him very much, the person I used to be.
I don't know how many girls are like me. In the long days after a breakup, they indulge themselves in sadness and are unwilling to extricate themselves. Even if they are gay, they will be dripping with sadness. Just like that, I want to leave something between Huahua and me.
——I am really, really afraid that one day I will cry and feel sad when I see him again. I am even more afraid that he will not have a good life after leaving me.