During a fire, he held the man's child and stayed away from the man's world. However, an accident a few years later caused the child to be taken away by the man. That was his favor. How could he be willing to let his child be alone in that terrible palace? Even if he had to face the man who he loved to the point of heartache again, he was willing to do so.
How should he face the repeated injuries from men and the subsequent revelation of Enxin's secrets about his life experience? What he wants is very simple, but when did he become so greedy? He only wants a little, okay? Just a little bit.