Today's An Ran still likes the boy like that back then, but suddenly realizes that it is no longer a world to be able to like him anymore. Her mind was spinning with memories of people she had met by chance or had violent collisions with, the hem of the girl's skirt hiding behind the sun, the profile of the boy squatting in a dark corner. She was afraid to touch those things that she had never experienced, could not imagine, but had actually encountered. She was afraid that any thought of them would be the spark that detonated the bomb or the last straw that broke the bridge. She thought she could fill the ravine of desire, but found that she only had enough strength to survive. The most uncomfortable conflict in life is one that can never be gone back or forgotten.
Pluto can't come back, and you can't buy a time machine even if you give everything you have. Time easily throws people away, turning cherries red and bananas green. In order to pursue the so-called mental maturity, she wasted her fleeting years.
The twilight is low and the setting sun is warm. Thinking of the past is both in the horizon and in front of you. The moonlight was cool and the stars were dim. After talking about the past, I said goodbye to myself. There are mountains and green hills in the distance, and there are ancient books and tea in front of you, which you can miss and love. God knows all the changes. This is Enron's biggest dream: lying on the sunflowers, even if depressed, still facing the sun. After all the changes in things and people, she never knew where spring was. But she also always believed that spring was there.