How much he wanted to say something to this smart, bright girl,
I actually like you very much,
However, he couldn't say it because he knew that he would not pay for this relationship. He was afraid that she would fall in love with him, but he did not need love, and he was afraid that her love would bring him trouble.
He wanted to say to her more at this moment,
I'm sorry, I feel heartbroken to treat you like this.
However, he still couldn't say it. He betrayed her trust so much, let her down, and used his business methods on her. He felt that he deserved to be hated by Jiang Lan, and there was no reason to excuse himself.