Never knowing that one day I would be alive alone without them by my side.
I can't recall anything about them, I can't see their things, so I live my life cautiously.
But it is so difficult for me not to think about them, and how can I do it? They all left because of car accidents, I know. However, the most fundamental reason is because I, it was me, deprived them of everything in this world.
Shu, Ali, Junzhi.
Every time I call their names, my whole body becomes so stiff that I can't move for a long time. I can't remember the way I breathe, but I just can't shed tears. That kind of grief has separated my soul from my body. I no longer exist in this world, essentially.
So, we are one, how can we live in a world without them?
I said I wanted to live a good life, but they are no longer around me and cannot be seen. Without people watching, there is nothing we can do.
I looked at the sky, which was as blue as every time we went for a picnic. In a world without me, they would be very lonely.
I said I would never leave you, so let us be together forever.
My vision became blurry, and I finally shed my first tear after they left.
I'm so happy that I'm finally going to be with you, forever.
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