From the confession of an actor girlfriend, many things cannot be explained in one or two sentences. Many things need to be developed bit by bit, bit by bit psychological changes, bit by bit attempts... I just want to write this article to share the story of a girl growing up into a woman, a person who is ignorant and gradually matures. This article is written in the first person's taste, wherever I think of it, without too many embellishments. It is presented in the form of a story confession. I wanted to expand it, but my time is limited. I will wait until I have more free time. (A true story, the protagonists in the article are all pseudonyms)