Going around in circles is just to reunite with that person, and getting together and leaving is just to pave the way for the silent stay in the future. If life were just like the first time we met, how could there be so many obsessions. Can't ask for it, can't let it go. Starting over is easier said than done, so much of the past lies there.
Don't know what to do, just let nature take its course. The love is deep and the relationship is shallow, or the relationship is renewed.