Don’t Say Goodbye in Winter

At twenty-six, Xu Nan had no house, no car, no money, and barely felt human. She prayed to the heavens: If I could start over, I’d defy fate and change my life! Strangely enough, she really did return to the age of eighteen. But every change she made set off a butterfly effect, and no matter how hard she tried, she never lived past twenty-six. She even managed to die in every way imaginable. Xu Nan cried out to the heavens: Come on, you can’t mess with me like this! orz After dying several times, Xu Nan decided to give up completely. She’d already turned herself into a rich second-generation heiress through sheer determination. Why not just laze around, flirt with men, and enjoy life? But when the next cycle began, it sent her back to age twenty-four. Before she could figure out what was going on, she ran into that man at a clinic on Gulangyu Island. He was strikingly handsome, poised and composed, with eyes that seemed tender at first glance, yet were so cold that even the warmth of the world seemed to shy away from them. But the moment those eyes turned toward her, she knew: he was her undoing. Especially when they brushed past each other. The half-button at Xu Nan’s chest seemed to have found its mate and flew toward him of its own accord. No matter how hard she tugged, the button wouldn’t come loose, so Xu Nan simply let go and lifted her face, the corner of her mouth curling into a small smile. “Handsome, is your jacket... made of magnets?” The man raised a hand nonchalantly and slowly undid the buttons on his chest, opening his collar to reveal a stretch of sharply defined collarbone. Xu Nan instinctively stepped back. “What are you doing?!” His lips curved, amusement lazily rising in his eyes. “If I don’t undo it, how are you going to get it?” -- When Song Siyu was sixteen, he fell in love with a girl at first sight. On a rainy day, a young woman holding a pale yellow umbrella waved to him through the layers of mist and rain. Song Siyu had seen her countless times, but that day alone, her smile was like the first peach blossom on a branch in early spring: delicate and fresh. In that rainy gloom, he found his own patch of sunshine. But eight years later, she died a terrible death right before his eyes. Later, the heavens gave him a chance to start over. Song Siyu had never believed in fate. But if she really was destined to leave him, he would change that fate with his own hands, even if it cost him everything. If she died because of him time and again, then he would stay away from her and watch from afar, clearing every obstacle from her path. Song Siyu suppressed the heart that kept beating for her. He had even thought that if she could live a good life this time, it would be all right if she loved someone else. But the moment Xu Nan decided to leave, his mind went blank. He grabbed her wrist and pulled her back. Their breaths mingled, their foreheads almost touching. His lips didn’t meet hers, but they were so close they could feel each other burning. “Don’t go.” His voice was hoarse. “I’m begging you.” -- I used every chance I had to start over just to see you once more. I only wish you peace and happiness, year after year, even if we never meet again. -- Reading Guide | Before You Begin Please read this before deciding whether to open the book: - Both leads are each other’s first love in every lifetime. P.S. The man Xu Nan flirts with in the lifetime when she gives up and lazes around is the male lead, so don’t worry. - There are some supernatural scenes. - The same timeline is revised again and again. - Both leads have separate memory-loss arcs, and they recover their memories gradually. - The romance has heartbreaking phases; it isn’t sweet and fluffy from beginning to end. - The male lead can be obsessive and possessive. He isn’t purely kindhearted. - Not a traditional second-chance romance ^_^ Blurb written: 2026.9.18 The theme: Love means being willing to let go and let you leave.