When I was twenty-three years old, it was a winter rain in Shanghai, and a cup of hot coffee delivered by mistake cost me half my life.
His name was Shen Yuzhi, his brows were as pale as ink, but his palms were cold. He took me to see the lights on the Bund, tied a scarf for me, put his hand to cover my eyes in the shadow of the parasol trees, and said, "Don't look at me like that, I can't bear it."
I thought it was fate, but it turned out to be luck.
Unemployment, house repossession, cyber violence, I was kicked out of the city overnight. I searched for him for seven days. I saw him cuddling with another woman in the club, and I simply said, "It was just a show."
Three years later, his driver told me: His father ordered him to collect the debt from the previous generation. He investigated me and ruined me, but he got caught in the middle. He said that if he doesn't marry me, I will hate him for a while; if he marries me, I will hate him for the rest of my life.
Later, the flight crashed and no one was found. There is a letter and a USB flash drive among the relics. There are no accounts in the USB flash drive, only more than 300 candid shots of me - the back of me revising a manuscript, waiting for the train in the rain, eating oden until I was scalded, feeding stray cats, and dozing off.
The last paragraph was recorded on the night before his departure. There is only a cup of cold coffee and a note in the picture:
"There are lights every year. There is only one of her. I was the one who lost the game first."
There are lanterns every year, but he is the only one.
Intention: The most cruel thing in the world is not cheating, but cheating and deceiving yourself first; the most painful thing is not farewell, but three months after his death, I knew he loved me. The grievances of the previous generation have forged the prison of the next generation, and love and hate are intertwined into a web. In the end, they do not owe each other, but in fact they have already owed each other. The three words "too late" are the bluntest knife in the world, cutting invisible places and cutting for life.