The day Shen Yanqing met Pei Yan for the first time, the man opened the door against the light and said with a smile: "My name is Pei Yan. You also have the character "Yan" in your name. We are destined."
He believed it.
Later, Pei Yan taught him how to play chess, held an umbrella for him, and kissed him on the lips when he was drunk and said "I'm serious." He took them all seriously and treasured them one by one.
Even if he knows that there is a secret letter to the Shen family in Pei Yan's study, he knows that Pei Yan treats him well because his features resemble an old friend, and he knows that this "affectionate relationship" is just a trap from start to finish.
He was deaf and could not hear what Pei Yan said to others, "just a mute chess piece."
He is mute and cannot say "I know you are lying to me but I still like you."
On the day Pei Yan tore up the marriage certificate, he stood behind the screen with sobering soup. After listening, he silently poured the soup into the flowerpot on the porch.
Later, he found a stack of letters in the mourning hall that had never been sent. The last one said:
"It doesn't matter if the person in your heart is Pei Jin. It doesn't matter if I look like him. As long as I can look at you."
Pei Yan knelt in the pile of letters and cried until he lost his voice for the first time.
He said Yan Qing, why didn't you tell me.
The old servant replied in a low voice beside him: Master, he has written. You just never saw it.
Three months later, news of death came from the north.
Pei Yan vomited blood all the way back to Beijing and performed sign language for three months on the empty memorial tablet.
That action is—
"Come back."
——
He thought he was lying to me, but in fact he also lied to himself.
He thought he had put on a good show, but little did he know that someone had already seen through the whole situation, but still lost all his sincerity.
Intention: Say it loudly if it is love