Leave Her at Nineteen

Xu Mu and Yu Miao have known each other for ten years. From elementary school to university, they have always been the most special existence in each other's lives. Yu Miao is the eldest lady who is well protected by her family. She is beautiful, simple and gentle, and is used to relying on the people closest to her. Xu Mu is silent and precocious, good at observing people's emotions, and he despises Yu Miao for being troublesome, but he always appears as soon as possible when she needs her. They grew up together, went to school together, lived together, and naturally shared each other's joys and sorrows. Everyone feels that they will continue like this. But only Xu Mu knew that this intimacy had turned into another kind of relationship a long time ago. She likes Yu Miao. But he didn't dare to tell her. Because she was afraid that once she said it, she would lose her qualifications as a friend. It wasn't until the beginning of college life that Yu Miao met another equally excellent and gentle person. Xu Mu discovered for the first time that the position that once belonged to him could be replaced by someone else. She began to learn to retreat, learn to be polite, and learn to figure out the relationship that had been "indifferent to each other" for ten years bit by bit. But Yu Miao didn't know what her sudden alienation meant. On her nineteenth birthday, Yu Miao received a Polaroid. Xu Mu told her: "I hope you are at your best age and leave the best memories." So she walked with her to the amusement park for a whole day and took pictures of her brightest smile this year. Until nightfall. Xu Mu held her hand, put on a blindfold, and brought her into a carefully prepared birthday surprise. And when Yu Miao took off her blindfold, she finally understood—— It turns out that this day has never belonged to just the two of them. Some people are waiting for confession among the lights and flowers. Someone stood outside the door and closed the door for the person they liked. The sea breeze blew through the nineteen-year-old night. Xu Mu walked to the beach alone. She didn't say goodbye. Just after a long period of youth, I said softly in my heart: "Happy birthday to nineteen-year-old Yu Miao." Some likes, but don't necessarily have the answer. Some people don't necessarily have to accompany you until the end. At least in our best years, we once loved someone so seriously and spent so much time with her through a period of youth. And that is already the best memory of youth. Purpose: This is not a story about "whether secret love is finally responded to". It's about two girls who, as they grow from youth to adulthood, learn to face the fact that "relationships will change" for the first time. Xu Mu spent ten years putting Yu Miao into his youth. She is used to companionship, used to waiting, and used to hiding "like" behind the identity of a friend. Until the appearance of another person made her realize for the first time that she could not occupy the most special position in Yu Miao's life forever. So she started to back away. It's not because I don't love him anymore, but because he finally understands that liking someone shouldn't be a reason to restrain him. Yu Miao also saw the person she had always taken for granted for the first time after losing her familiar companionship. There was no real betrayal on their part, and no one did anything wrong. It's just that their growth has put them at different intersections. Some people choose to approach bravely, while others choose to retreat quietly. The most regrettable part of youth is probably this: You can like someone for many years, but you may not be able to accompany her for the rest of her life. But that doesn't mean the relationship is meaningless. At least, they had the most sincere companionship in their best years. Just like that Polaroid. Photos can capture a certain moment, but they cannot capture the fading youth. So Xu Mu didn't leave him alone in the end. She just left nineteen years old for Yu Miao. Leaving that girl with the brightest, most carefree smile. Then turned around and walked into the sea breeze. Because the ultimate meaning of some likes is not to own. But I hope you are happy. Even if that happiness has nothing to do with me in the end.