Towards Your Trajectory

They met in the first sunshine of spring, separated in the first rain of summer, reunited in the first wind of autumn, and finally fell in love with the first snow of winter. In the second year of high school, they chose subjects and were divided into classes, and fate put them into the same classroom. They occupy the seat by the window of the bookstore and accompany each other outside the convenience store late at night. Xu Qiming stuffed a marathon finishing medal into Yu Sha's palm, like delivering a solemn promise. After the New Year's Day party ended, I pressed the shutter, and the flash froze two young and immature faces. Yu Sha casually mentioned her desire to take her family around the world in the future. Xu Qiming answered seriously: "Then I have to be a tour guide. I am afraid that you will get lost, so I will help you save a destination first. When the college entrance examination is over, I will accompany you to compare the map and find the real scenes one by one." She took it as a joke and did not see the two extra seconds in his eyes. Later, family changes uprooted Yu Sha. She cut off all contact and disappeared from his world. Six years later, she became a documentary photographer. One day while filming in the country, I accidentally broke into an old bookstore and the person behind the counter raised his head. Their eyes met, and the dust of time fell down. On the night when she was drunk, he guided her step by step, piecing together the fragmented truth of that year. She nodded as the first snow fell on New Year's Eve. He opened a drawer that had been sleeping for six years and took out a pair of star earrings - one was pinned to the bone of her left ear, and the other was put on his right ear. For example, Sha's love was earlier, Xu Qiming's secret love. On New Year's Eve six years ago, the red envelope he gave her contained no more than seven hundred yuan. After her grandma passed away, Yu Sha repaid him with 700 days of companionship, and used a handful of sleeping pills to stop her at the age of 27 when she most wanted to travel. After the funeral, Xu Qiming attempted suicide and was rescued. He finally chose to live because the letter she left behind contained one sentence - Help me find the meaning of travel and complete this grand world for me. Xu Qiming picked up the camera she left behind and went on the road alone. Concept: The oldest legend in the world is a footnote that regards death as love. But Yu Sha's death had nothing to do with love. Her biggest concern as a girl was not falling in love with anyone, but saving enough money to take her grandparents on a trip. Go see the sea, see the mountains, see a world they have never seen in their life in that windowless house in the countryside. She has learned so much geography knowledge, knows how karst landforms are formed, knows where the monsoon blows from, and knows that the world is big, big enough to contain all a person's pain. So she desperately wanted to go out and become a person who has traveled through thousands of rivers and mountains. Not to dilute the pain, but to avoid letting the pain become her world. Girls shouldn't look just one way. Not every girl's destination must stop at the word love. She can be the wind, the clouds, a passer-by between the mountains and the sea, or a person walking into the wilderness with the camera on her back. She longs for freedom, and longs to use her own feet to measure the boundaries of the world, rather than living within the framework given to her by others and being a flower to be viewed. The geographical line of the novel is her lifeline. From the encounter on the bus, to the model in the geography competition, to the desire to travel around the world that she expressed - every relationship is related to geography, but every geography ultimately points to the person she really wants to be. Xu Qiming wants to be her tour guide, wants to save her destination, and wants to accompany her to find the real scenes one by one. But it would be many years before he understood that what she really wanted to find was never a destination, but a direction of her own that had been deprived of her since birth. Yu Sha is dead. He died at the age of twenty-seven, at the age when he loved himself most. Xu Qiming later took up her camera and saw the world for her. He gradually understood what she said - to avoid letting pain become the world. He had no chance to truly understand the weight of this sentence while she was alive. He only knew that she chose to leave, not because she didn't love the world, but precisely because she loved it so much that she wanted to save herself from pain, and she loved it so much that she gave her heart to something bigger than love.