You Said You Gave up on August

When he was nineteen years old, Lin Yuan dragged his suitcase and stood under the dome of Milan Central Station. He believes that the most difficult aspects of studying abroad are language, examinations and extending residence. Later I learned that the most difficult thing was to say "good night" to Shen Qing, my first love in the United States, after a six-hour time difference, and then stare at the phone, waiting for a reply that would never come. Cross-border love is like a slow train with no destination. They fall in love in person, are silent in videos, and look for evidence that they still love each other in each other's social status. It wasn't until Shen Qing's relationship status became blank that Lin Yuan understood that there was no need to say the breakup. Later, he met Su Xia. She held a light beige umbrella and walked towards him from the sunshine of the Adriatic Sea. She sent a tilde message to Lin Yuan, and accompanied him to see some wild sunflowers in the corner at Faenza Station at two in the morning. She said: "When you take care of everything, come to Shanghai to find me." But Shen Qing returned to China. First love comes back, old love rekindles. Lin Yuan was unable to make a choice between "the past that he couldn't let go" and the "present that he couldn't let go of". He wanted to have both, but ended up losing both. Twenty-year-old Lin Yuan lost Su Xia. Sixteen years later, he stood in front of a sea of sunflowers in the Orcia Valley and said: "I finally said goodbye to my twenty-year-old self." This is a story about "not being able to choose". It's not that I don't love it, it's that I don't dare. It's not that I don't want to, it's that it's too late. Some people are destined to only accompany you for one journey. And that journey was already the summer most like summer in my life. Concept: The concept of this work can be summarized in three sentences: People's deepest regret is not that they cannot love, but that they love but dare not admit it. The most cruel thing about youth is not poverty and loneliness, but always thinking that there is still time. The hardest thing about growing up is not what you have experienced, but finally having the courage to say goodbye to your twenty-year-old self. It took Lin Yuan sixteen years to go from "I disagree" to "I still don't know" and finally to "Finally, at the age of 36, I finally said goodbye to my 20-year-old self." In these sixteen years, he has been growing, succeeding, and designing one building after another. But only he knew that the boy who was dragging his suitcase at the entrance of Milan Central Station, looking at the huge dome and not knowing where to go, always lived in his heart. That boy once let down two girls at the same time. One goes away in silence, and the other ends by disappearing.