The heartbeat of youth is the loudest and most silent.
And the departure of some people is the first silent coming-of-age ceremony of youth.
In the early spring of the third year of junior high school, Wen Shuyu lost her best friend.
No quarrels, no misunderstandings, just two young and proud people who refused to bow their heads. After a week of pulling and pulling in both directions, and being soft-hearted in both directions, in the end, we still failed to retain the friendship that lasted for several years.
The unexpected breakup of their friendship completely shattered her sensitive, cowardly, and dependent nature.
She was forced to grow up, learn to be gregarious, learn to be alone, and learn to heal herself from embarrassment and grievances. She gradually became cheerful and open-minded, had new friends and a new life, and supported herself through the chaotic years of preparing for the exam.
As the seasons pass, we meet three times.
They passed each other in midsummer and missed winter, until they met again for the third time, just when she was feeling depressed.
Xie Shiyan, the young man who had been her heartbeat throughout her youth, unexpectedly caught a glimpse of her embarrassment and spoke softly to comfort her.
That was the most unexpected ray of light in the dark days.
Also this time, she finally got the contact information she had been thinking about for a long time.
Wen Shuyu, who had lost her former timidity, mustered up all the courage to slowly pursue this long-lasting secret love in her own clumsy, sincere and passionate way. She takes the initiative to share the details of her daily life, approaches gently, maintains the relationship seriously, and tries her best to keep this light that belongs to her.
It's a pity that the heartbeat of young people is mostly one-way and barren.
There were no bloody incidents or fierce quarrels, but the heat gradually faded and the tacit understanding gradually disappeared.
From talking about everything to having nothing to say, all the brave efforts are slowly exhausted.
In the end, they said goodbye decently and deleted each other tacitly. From then on, they had nothing to do with each other and never met in the sea of people.
A close friend is separated, a grand departure, and a loss of dignity.
Wen Shuyu's youth did not have a happy ending.
But those nights of self-healing, moments of bravery, and moments illuminated by the tenderness of young people eventually transformed her into a better version of herself.
It turns out that the greatest meaning of youth is never to get what you want.
But after crying, chasing, and letting go, he grew up calmly.
Intention: To write about parting and self-healing in youth, to accept the imperfection of friendship, and to complete self-growth amidst regrets.