At the age of thirty-eight, Yang Mai thought that he was finally reaching the end of his life.
He is about to graduate with his Ph. D., His career is getting better, and the man who has been in love for five years is finally starting to talk about marriage seriously. She thought that those long waits, quarrels and cold wars were just the necessary run-in for two middle-aged people before they get married.
Until one day, she felt more and more strongly that he had changed.
The disappearing good mornings, the increasingly perfunctory replies, the cold war for no reason, the sudden change of enthusiasm, and those unexplainable details.
She has no evidence.
Everyone told her: You think too much.
On the subway in late autumn, two girls were talking about tarot.
By some strange coincidence, she opened her phone and typed in the question that had been lingering in her heart for a long time but never dared to face:
Did he cheat?
The moment the cards were revealed, she thought she was spying on a man's secret.
Only later did she realize that what was really being revealed was her own life.
Love, marriage, family of origin, desire, obsession, self-worth... The things she once held tightly began to collapse layer by layer.
And perhaps the cruelest and most merciful thing about fate is that——
It takes away everything you once believed in, not necessarily to punish you.
Or maybe, it's so you can finally see yourself.
Purpose: to see oneself in love and loss, and to rebuild inner strength amid the uncertainty of fate.